Category: Mythology


Perfect Secrecy

‘save me from the lion’s mouth; for thou hast heard me from the horns of unicorns’ Psalms 22:21

I found myself somewhere
at the edge of the known earth
in an age when there is nowhere left to hide
pursuing unicorns, my elusive alicorn cure
for you it was always a game
you never think I remember
but the blunt force trauma
entered my mind all twisted,
as a matter of survival

Your missive arrives
in that cryptographic mind
geography’s incomprehensibility
impossible to decipher
a one-time pad
on a sheet of nitrocellulose
it burns instantaneously
leaving small ash

We agreed ahead of time
for the 23rd of October
a truly random sequence of letters
trick of modular addition
only I got lost in the ciphertext
mistaking it for meaning
meta-language to transcend
what came before

A tortuous inculcation
using proximity and shame
more like a rearrangement
the homonym of my name
anagram, a twisted joke
more than one hundred thousand
(because the numbers
never lie) forming a:
cacophonic bestiary
axial defense
detested asset lure
hush, rue

A spiritual starving
that hollows me out from the inside
even after all this time
with all this great distance
it is a violence that wrenches free
dissociates, disembodies, a disease

A priori probability
is equivocated to
a posteriori where
the entropy of plaintext
equals the conditional entropy
of the plaintext given in the ciphertext C
you’ll begin to see
where I derailed the equation

All that I have is this legacy of ashes
an unbreakable code
shielding you from your crimes
infinite computing no adversary
for the tangled traumas
obscured in my mind

In a conventional symmetric
encryption algorithm
complex patterns of
substitutions and transpositions
these places dance
to orient me to the key
I see the risk

Data remanence is such
a continual problem
simplest overwrite technique
write the same data everywhere
(often just a pattern of zeros)
a way to be nothing
nullify feeling

Poetry is a cipher but
it isn’t known whether
there’s a cryptanalytic procedure
which can reverse these transmutations
mathematics may be my undoing
while I’m mourning what cannot be recovered
security continually assures me that this technique
is proven to provide the perfect secrecy

Linked to Mark Kerstetter’s excellent prompt on persona poems – join us http://dversepoets.com/2011/10/22/poetics-the-other

he Thea (the Goddess)

for Velvetina Purrs (Thank you)
(this is not a retelling of myth but a new story, a flourish of poetic license)

for a long time now
(yet what are millennia to me?)
I, Athena, have wanted to sing you into being
garnering potency from introspection

the universe is expanding

spinning, weaving, my mantras
into a nascent song
I was born bloodied by the cleaving
fully formed Tritogeneia

the universe is expanding at an ever increasing rate

Metis, root of my strategic mind
my gifts of freedom raise civilizations
Atrytone, the unwearying, dianoia
as a long period comet reaches its aphelion

theou noesis (mind of god)

for a long time now
I have gathered the necessary cistrons
laid them before the axis from where
all beginnings arise at the base of my olive tree

Athena Parthénos in my aspect

I culled the Arctic Ocean, searched my Carina Nebula,
ground Himalayan salt, rang Buddhist bells,
bound pterodactyl wing bones with wolf fur
faceted padparadscha sapphires and stole Ayres’ Hinba
to merge with my vast dark within

parthenogenesis: incanting the ritual mysteries of your birth

daughter arise!
the first to fashion yourself
blue fire hair, Boulder opal eyes, glaukopis
art’s child, you see through iridescent irises

Nova Aetas

speaking you shift what is known, what is knowable
oh, olive branch, each leaf bearing my name
Athena Hygieial, healer
Aphaea, an invisibly numinous being
Altheonóa, ethonoe, en ethei noesin

defender of moral sagacity, flawless virtue,
a cunning intelligence, owl-woman reclaimed
your flight is a miracle of liberty!

clavis aurea, golden key to the future

Witnesses


Mnemosyne, grandmother,
whose many names
are older than memory itself
enfolds herself within a Magpie spirit cloak
and spins forth a world where her
Muses bear daughters

She flies from her home
where I am forbidden to travel
Blue Lake upon Taos Mountain
through the Pueblo at the mouth
of Red Willow Canyon

Calling her two eldest granddaughters to her side,
a pilgrimage to Conifer Mountain
three Horarctic Magpies
hudsonia here in the Rockies
forage in the blue-eyed grass
walking along the grey fox-trod path
pat down by elk hooves

Good morning Grandmother, I am singing today

Juniper bush patches
quilted with kinnikinnick
orange paintbrushes dotted with
columbines rise above
toadstools and ferns
black bear stalks the wood pile

She begins to mend what is
broken but her own
we are broken but her own

They’ve never come this far
this high upon the mountain
alpine yarrow beneath the
ever changing light, a forest of aspens,
blue spruce, and bristlecone pines
she nurtures and connects
intimating a heroic form to life

Magpies are inventors via
expansive executive function
insightful passerines
‘catch me if you can’ tricksters
who create their own tools
to dig up the truth

Black beak burrows damp earth
Grandmother is making cache holes
while aspen eyes keep watch
she buries a writing tablet,
aulos, veil, dual faced masks
scrolls, cithara, globe, and compass
flashes her eye grounding memory
leaves her true gifts and looks me in the eye

Grandmother your granddaughters are waiting for the time of unearthing

The three begin to
sing one another’s songs
preparing to fly home for
Magpies, like their sisters Ravens,
recognize themselves in the mirror

Fetched Oft By Chance

Kali whispering fates swirls her tongue forming
loci for impending chaos disintegrating
she saves one child chosen as witness
to her wrenching nod poised rendering
swift judgment upon all soft creatures

she clacks geographic prophetic scripts logorrheic
fingers curled with dramatic glee
multitudes of vertiginous yawning palaces
of iron Underwood typewriters
spinning tales of harrowing crises
decrying stories permeable
some querulous left tumbling
victims fetched oft by chance

earth born bounty’s sons and daughters float along oblivious
pupation’s hopeful peels light laughter and curiosity
aubergine eyes, twirls of glorious eiderdown,
espouse rambling besotted naïve ideals
floral tempests accelerating

peering at horizons of impoverishing windmills
monstrous blades gouge perilous trenches
wind creates shimmering uplifts where children hover fixated
argon burns bright in neon telemetries of serial reflections
mudslides contentiously obliterate, shift our paradigmatic visions
hunger’s hard tacked swirling blunders rent innocents sideways
through thundering organs mangling broken starved bodies

derision forgone relegates foreshadowing in helical caverns
reams of toroidal cross capacitors quantifying dielectric constants
scanning for insulators: none found

Kali licks her lips again croaking
vita incerta, mors certissima

 

‘O Holy Wisdom, Soaring Power, encompass us with wings unfurled, and carry us, encircling all, above, below, and through the world,’ giving voice to ecstatic melismas of avidity eternal.

Calligraphic signifiers rouse masterful enumerators while language seduces inscribed astral bodies listening with striving attention eons churning the refrain avidity eternal.

Pneuma is piqued by enraptured subtleties caressing phosphorus membranes
upon gentle ascetics performing ignoble traversals over Gaussian eliminations of avidity eternal.

Stumbling fearful lacrimose tender utterances filled with fatuous genuflections
upending ornate tables in art’s gilded sanctuaries finding and seeking anew your avidity eternal.

Bold succulent hedonists nuzzle watchful questioning contrarians into a tremulous daring surrender
lapping nectar buoyed by shocking desire penultimate game of avidity eternal.

Jousting firm convictions encircling kyriarchy infatuated with a once pellucid order
nesting in suffocating ruts blown apart in the mysterium tremendum casts avidity eternal.

Whispering bouquets of adoration and certitude unending: concede, merge, meld
suck wonder and lyrical promises floating in ephemeral delirium swirling avidity eternal.

Beacon of unadorned fidelity no soul cage yet an ever patient dove over shore less seas
encountering spirit rapt longing in glowing sensual unraveling hosAnnas avidity eternal.

Note:

‘O Holy Wisdom, Soaring Power, encompass us with wings unfurled, and carry us, encircling all, above, below, and through the world,’ Hildegard von Bingen —O Holy Spirit, Root of Life

Mutable Barrier

She felt intimate remembrances sleeping, murmurs

I wind the licorice rope
tightly around the candied button
at the entrance to the sugar castle

I must bind taut the defenses

Babel Tower dystopia
Baba Yaga’s home
insidious seeping dread

fleeting sense of the stillness of hidden spaces

A child, dead,
tethered to a post
startles from the courtyard
I fear his ghost
push him down the well

He must not be seen

exploring the home, foreign but intimately known

reuniting with the other boy
reviving pliant keys
they open my eyes
to the greater danger

the lurking wraith
eager to devour
to destroy the girl beside me

She must be secured from within

searching for those abandoned spaces, promises of protection and gnosis

warning’s radioactive signal
bluebeard burning in my head

her secret place, her secret self

the boys twirl their knives
act threatening
small curved blades

the heroic brothers
come to save their sister
from truth?

flooding her awareness, revelation of fear

They must forget their place

retrograde amnesia fails to save me
I remember why I don’ t want to know

the wraith, diaphanous

I must refrain from seeing

paradox to remember what I forgot
denying what was there
in the purlieu of the psyche
distorting memories loom
delicate and pernicious confections

the reason for all this cryptic architecture

spirit unfurling truths unleashing
here before me with his knife stabbing

I will drown in the well

mouthing outcry no sound forms
voice stolen by the echo

she’s gone on ahead without me

Ode to the Gardener – click here to hear the poem read

Opalescent tendrils of vascular bundles
transmitting ecstatic affiance to a
hypanthia of fractals reaching

the garden’s frontis piece
quincunxial arrangement
with Syrinx at the center

she presides at the gate
reeds echoing melismas
of verdant overtures poetic

past nymphs in fits of paraesthesia
pounding sepals, petals, stamens, osculant
while a hawser binds leeward vessels tightly

fleeing from Pan’s wild and ferruginous lust
the nectary sustains a comminuted fracture
Bohdi tree’s enlightening sap releasing

it is a mandala ever spinning
universe’s ontology round
a radiant funiculus
a bliss eternal

Dedicated to Joy (Hedgewitch)

Mere Beasts An Epic
(excerpts in bold which represent about 15% of the full work)

Introit   1. Lavinia   2. Ophelia   3. Pictures   4. Death Enters the Room
5. The Intermediary   6. Deep Grief   7. Missionary   8. Pisti   9. Mutilation
10. A Savior Complex   11. Obsession   12. Divided   13. The Trull   14. Maiming
15. River   16. Exile   17. Desert   18. Predators   19. Apophatic
20. Speciousness   21. Phoenix   22. She Who Abides   23. Shame
24. Lively Warrant   25. Judgment   26. Cataphatic   27. Tetra Pylon
28. Flaming Sword   29. Agape   30. Mark of Grace   31. Mere Beasts
32. Elpida   33. Gnosis   34. Imago Dei   35. Redemption   36. Quiddity
37. The Paradoxes   38. Muse   39. Rebirth   40. Sophia

Introit
Titus: An if your highness knew my heart, you were.-
My lord, the emperor resolve me this:
Was it well done of rash Virginius
To slay his daughter with his own right hand,
Because she was enforc’d, stain’d, and deflour’d?

Saturninus: It was Andronicus.

Titus: Your reason mighty lord?

Saturninus: Because the girl should not survive her shame,
And by her presence still renew his sorrows.

Titus: A reason mighty, strong and effectual;
A pattern precedent, and lively warrant,
For me, most wretched to perform the like:-
Die, die Lavinia, and thy shame with thee;
(He kills Lavinia)
And, with thy shame, thy father’s sorrow die!*

*Titus Andronicus (V.iii.38-51) by Shakespeare

King: This is the poison of deep grief;
… poor Ophelia,
Divided from herself and her fair judgment,
Without which we are pictures, or mere beasts.*

* Hamlet (IV.v.40, 48-50) by Shakespeare

1. Lavinia
Lavinia, a name haunted by shame
The daughter who loses all:
Dignity, hands, tongue, maidenhead, self
To receive mercy at her father’s hand
One more victim of life’s grave cruelty

This one born centuries later
Failed by the protection of a father
No husband or brothers to stand with her

She forges bold expressions in paint
With precision, a line well reasoned
And true – cutting through post-modern isms,
Edge of identity and visual field

Her work: prodigious, collected, critiqued
Viewed by the elite –
Discerning, argumentative, and informed

Yet she is gnawed away inside at the sacrifice
Required by her acceptance –
That which is like a man’s –
Hard edged, logical, demanding, and concrete
Where Eros’ sweet invitation is laid fallow,
By ego’s sharp curbing of her free expression
Complexity, variation – her creative forces:
Divergent streams, converging, are still

2. Ophelia
Ophelia, sweet child, dominated by powerful men
Abandoned to grief and madness
Her last moments, a watery slip
May have been unintended consequence
Or dire injury
Consecrated – and yet we wonder
Who is culpable?

A modern woman now faces
The same pernicious forces
That may divide her from her own precious reason
Professor of mathematics, her intellect, ratiocinative,
Attempts to quantify the carrying capacity of the earth
What can it hold, nurture, sustain
Without ruin, lack of renewal,
Or toxic inundation?

Her losses, both great and universal
Small and specific
Her shame-filled love
Will serve as the crucible
Over which her sanity may be fractured

3. Pictures
(Art Critic, Yves) Lavinia’s art is a concatenation
Of architecture, minimalism, post-modernism, and conceptual art
Her meticulous line acknowledges the reality
Of the restricted world in which we find ourselves:
Measured, under surveillance, scientifically dissected
Without irony

Unlike Julie Mehretu’s marks
Which work against a Fascist imposition of order
Conveying a fundamentally humanist message
Lavinia’s work shows the intense naïveté
Of such leanings

Like the steady, deft hand of a butcher
She cleaves idealism at its root!
Unlike women of the past
She shows no propensity to politicize gender
No weakness for sentimentality
No shying away from the cruelty of existence
This fearlessness, an emboldened stance,
A primary ingredient in her acuity
Leads her to a new vision:

A post apocalyptic world without nostalgia
The world as it is becoming:
Crowded, populated by individuals
mainly concerned with their own needs and desires

An open wound
Increasingly destroyed
Not to be made again into paradise
But simply to be destroyed
She is the bravest artist of the 21st century

(Lavinia) Pre-figured symbols and signifiers
Are land mines of meaning and association
Figurative art remains reactionary,
Revealing underlying ideology
Nonrepresentational art isn’t the basis of a movement,
a call to action, or directive

Within it there is no agenda,
Cannon of aesthetics,
Or political ground
The visual language exists within its own independent logic
Unburdened by oppressive modalities

6. Deep Grief
Death entered the rooms of her soul,
Unwelcome and alien
Permeated the air
Sleep was her only comfort,
The denial of dreams
Truth returned each morning, aching
Nothing in her waking hours could drive it away
Time had betrayed her –
No solace gained through its passing

The memory of life before became distant
The memory of her love transfigured into a specter;
A cruel trick

She could feel the world
Slipping from her mind
Meaning drained from her face,
Replaced with an effigy:
Becoming the object of her own scorn
Confusion lined her eyes,
Now emptied of other expression

In the recesses of her secret self she began to be afraid
Not of death, stalking her thoughts, but insanity
A far greater apprehension –
Death is certain,
Sanity not so fixed!

The onset of madness,
Robbing her lucidity, was subtle,
A slow and silent poison
It weighed upon her as if tangible, haunting her
The connection between her innermost being
And the outer world dissolving –
She began mimicking his death

13. The Trull
(Lavinia) I tried so hard to be only one thing,
Contain my multiplicity
Conform to the rules,
In so doing I damaged
The very part of me that I sought to express

Strange how I became a painter
In order to belong to myself; to express a self
To explore the myriad paths to my soul
And ended up wounding it
I became possessed by the world –
At such a small price
How quickly I was lost when tempted

I wanted it – I convinced myself it was the fulfillment of my ambition
I lost my source, my essence, my soul
It was precious, but I did not know to protect it

What does it mean to have lost my integrity?
I am a trull, selling out the soul that fed the work
I wanted to be the center of attention
They are merely circling around me
With no love for me – my humanity

I have only fed them through the mask
A mirror for their projected desires
They are vain; they wanted me to reflect them
My vanity distorted me to their pleasure
Pandering soul!
Starved for love – no integrity at all
Do I pity you or avenge my honor?
For that which was stolen, defiled, and ravaged

I am sick; ill from your poisonous fallacies
Here the world has set my penance
For my lack of discernment
It has robbed me of the tool of my crimes
Poor hand, it was under orders from the world,
My own vain striving!

Justice was swift and absolute
I cannot even seem to make use of myself
I have been deemed unworthy of service –
What is there for me now?

19. Apophatic
(Ophelia) I find that in the process
Of declaring this moment, this thought,
As what defines, delineates me
That in the next moment I reject the idea
I found was all encompassing
The world, my internal landscape
Proves too vast and unknowable

I am always trying to stop
At a point in time to reach contentment,
Clinging to it;
Spreading it thinly across the hours to come
When it wears away I start again and think
(as if it never occurred before)
It will stay!
That I have at last won and the answer is granted –
The key to happiness

23. Shame
(Ophelia) Reality, reality is too cruel!
One moment, no chance to relive things
Reality is for people imprisoned
Addicted to being victimized
I can control my world
That is real freedom
(Who calls this madness?
I will brook no captious dissenters!)
The liberation which we dare not name
Too afraid to even whisper
Who needs society’s labels?
I have found happiness
Control, complete control
Infinitely superior to the curse of reality!

24. Lively Warrant
(Lavinia) Where is my father?
To murder my shame
And as I have embodied it, my own flesh!
There is no such person on this earth
Must I be alone even in this?
There is no mercy for my will lives
Urging me to return home!

Please God, why could not he have done it
Not in compassion but spite
It would still bear the mark of your grace!
Why have you brought me here
If not to let me die – born again to new life?

How can you abandon me?
What need do I have of you
Who brought the shame only death can end
To mark me so that others will recoil,
Feeling that shame as if a spreading disease?
How cruel the cure of death!

What compassion is shown
Stripping me of my self-possession?
Is this how you make me yours?
Declaring my presence as that repulsiveness
Giving me nothing beyond it
As if the whole of my life lost meaning from that moment
I cannot bear it but do not know how to lay it down
Please! You must release me from it!

33. Gnosis
(Lavinia) No wonder Edvard Munch went mad
Thought his mind slipped
He set before him to define life and love
The embrace of life and death
The depths of his emotion
He felt he could grasp it and put it there,
Fixed for public viewing

Each new piece a marker,
A signpost of meaning,
Leading, spiraling towards a complete philosophy
He would not have seen it as his world view
He would have seen it as truth – the truth

A search to express the truth can only lead to madness
It clings to the singular when multiplicity is required
The resulting fracture –
Making multiplicity into duality (love/hate, life/death)
Forcing it all into unities of form breaks the vessel
The mind cannot will the one truth into being
The mind is not unified, it too is many,
Pressure snaps the psyche as it
Tries to reject the truth that surrounds it
Truth it cannot comprehend, label or convey