‘To be nobody but yourself in a world
which is doing its best night and day
to make you everybody but yourself –
means to fight the hardest battle
which any human being can fight –
and never stop fighting’*
Syncretistic perceptions, an undifferentiated overlay, defies analysis
charcoal line smudges of general schemas obscure impressions
rich encounters snap floodlights of jutting rebar arousals
Hypersensitive virtualization creates painted landscapes
interior silhouette projects an invasion of organic forms
brushed upon the tethered denigration of industrial life
Here in the interstices my song floods the synapses
sanctuary of full intellection and emotive grace
perpetual motion unaware of constraints
Rigorous self-actualization, joy in overcoming
physical and mental obstacles, planes of perspective
in a carmine sky, layered with personal/political history
Equivalent Phase
Universal current skips along a straight colored line
zaps as the artist’s tinted horizons chase imaginative space
indeterminate semantic memory emanates
parkourist streaming cobalt sparklers in an art of human reclamation
Paradoxical Phase
Ratcheting optimal levels of arousal to overstimulation
reality wends an anfractuous path towards the essentially absurd
interior integrity crumbles under the tonnage
crushing architecture of exterior inhumanity
Ultra-paradoxical
Extreme choreography of pure constructs, pandemonium of agonies,
dissuades association, enforcing a gaze of self-negation
trace elements lose gravity, reversal’s insidious influence reigns
as intensely private volition deconstructs
(initiating post traumatic dissociation in my supratemporality field)
*E.E. Cummings
Notes:
Transmarginal inhibition is a psychological term denoting an organism’s response to overwhelming stimuli. Ivan Pavlov through his research found “that the most basic inherited difference among people was how soon they reached this shutdown point and that (those with) the quick-to-shut-down (response) have a fundamentally different type of nervous system.” Patients who have reached this shutdown point often become socially dysfunctional. Patients who dissociate during and after the experience, will more easily dissociate or shut down during stressful or painful experiences, and may experience post traumatic stress disorder.
There are three stages passed through for state of transmarginal inhibition to be reached.
- equivalent phase: response matches the stimuli, which is considered normal, baseline behavior.
- paradoxical phase: associated with quantity reversal, occurs when small stimuli receive major response and a major stimuli elicit small responses.
- ultra-paradoxical: the final stage, associated with quality reversal in which negative stimulation results in positive responses and vice versa.
An organism can progress through these stages by increased stimulation, random negative stimulation, reversing positive and negative stimulation, or physically debilitating the organism. – from Wikipedia (with modifications)
Parkour (also called Le Parkour, PK, or free running) is an activity in which participants attempt to clear all obstacles in their path in the most fluent manner possible. A traceur, parkourist or free runner is a participant of parkour. The term free runner has been commonly used by the media.
The ultimate goal in parkour is to ‘flow’ along one’s path, for the entire journey to be as one fluent movement with no pauses or breaks. A principal rule of parkour is to never go backwards. Free runners believe that there is path to every obstacle which is achieved through forward movement.
The magnitude and technicality of a move in parkour are secondary to the flow and beauty of it. Explains Jerôme Ben Aoues, one of the traceurs featured in in the acclaimed Channel 4 documentary Jump London, “The most important thing really is the harmony between you and the obstacle; the movement has to be elegant, that’s what will make it prettier. Length and distance only add to the beauty of the move, if you manage to pass over the fence elegantly that’s beautiful, rather than saying ‘I jumped the lot.’ What’s the point in that?”
To many, parkour is an extreme sport, to others a discipline more comparable to martial arts, to others an art form akin to dance, a way to encapsulate human movement in its most beautiful form. Parkour also inspires freedom; being free in an urban environment designed to trap, not restricted by railings, staircases, even buildings. It is for many people a way of life. – from wordiQ
More of David Schnell’s paintings can be viewed in this German language video
fascinating anna….this is good on so many levels….my fav part…Here in the interstices my song floods the synapses
sanctuary of full intellection and emotive grace
perpetual motion unaware of constraints…i also like how you work us through the phases, appreciative of the process notes to frame it but i got it…smiles….good stuff…and cant wait for you to take over the pub today!
Thanks Brian, as you know I enjoy reclaiming the poetry of scientific terminology, perhaps ameliorating some of its dehumanizing effects. I loved your poem and will be by to comment soon. I’m humming with excitement to host!
that picture is pretty phenom as well…
I first saw his work at the Denver Art Museum and then purchased a couple of his books, glad it resonated with you.
nice…love david schnell’s pictures…and enjoyed to listen to the interview in german…ha…and a very well woven poem…love the precision with that you take us through the different levels…can be connected to so much…enjoyed the footnotes as well and really looking forward to the prompt…thanks so much for hosting anna
Thank you ever so much for the opportunity. Sorry my enthusiasm got away with me – I didn’t intend to write two prompts – haha :)! Marvelous to hear you’re a fan of David Schnell and thought you might enjoy the interview. I did think the nature of the metaphor worked well for so many aspects of life.
I found the first stanzas the most powerful in the poem – I have to confess that I am not very intellectual and have a hard time parsing all the pieces through, so the notes and the Cummings were very helpful to me. To some degree, I think these syncretistic perceptions do defy analysis, and yet you gainfully try – parcouring your way from solid footing to the next wall – a part of me thinks it’s important to analyze what causes things like post-traumatic stress, and hope to separate from it, but then the whole experience I think is something that shocks and paralyzes the analytic part of the brain – its seems to me that’s a bit part of what it’s about – which is, of course, what you describe here– A very interesting subject matter and approach. I think I like first stanza best with the floodlights of rebar arousal – even thinking about post tramautic stress I get this sense of floodlights in my soul and backing up against that rebar arousal (not pleasant!) k.
Thanks K. I agree we need the analysis it’s that these perceptions are not always sensical to the person experiencing them. I hope you link up, I’m looking forward to it :).
A fascinating, informative, multi-layered and ultimately highly creative post. Marvellous.
Thank you for the lovely compliment!
Impressive as always, Anna. Thanks for the great prompt over at dVerse!
So glad you enjoyed the prompt :)!
Really liked the parkour thing…just yesterday, I was wondering what those people were called…the ones that easily jump off things onto other things…moving through obstacles fluidly (I did a little something at work that made me think of them…told my coworker that I was one of those whatchamacallits)…cool poem, thanks!
Oh, I love when something links to another that I want to know. Thanks!
Whew, this really was an amazing piece of writing, Anna. Your vocabulary and knowledge are astounding. So many levels to this poem (one which I had to read slowly and thoroughtfully); but I did appreciate the additional explanations as well.
Gosh Mary, how kind of you to say. I love a challenge though this one I wrote in about 20 minutes as I got overly enthusiastic about writing the prompt. That’s why there’s a part 1 & 2 for Logophilia :)!
I can only agree with what everyone else is saying. This is highly intellectual and informative in so many different ways. I loved your following commentary and explanation of what Parkour is.
Fabulous prompt at the pub too Anna!
I’m thrilled you enjoyed the prompt, I was terribly excited and honored to be asked :)!
This has many layers, some of which I can’t fully understand with the scientific terms. Your explanation is very helpful and enlightening ~ Thanks for the wonderful article and prompt ~
Good to know the notes helped and you got something out of the prompt. It’s been a lot of fun so far :)!
layers galore, both poetic and informative.
The sensory overload syndrome is scary and debilitating.
I know it [too] well. Didn’t realize it indicated a different type of neurological set-up as I thought it was caused by premature wear and tear. That video sound is so clear and easy to understand.
Me too Aprille, me too. I was happy to learn of its neurological origins though I know abuse can cause all kinds of additional problems and sensitivities. I always appreciate your comments :).
Ah, Anna. I’ve been back here 4 times today, reading the glossary then going back to the poem. I envy those who understand. It helped to think of the obstacles as if fences in a horse race–something that could be solved elegantly and should be, rather than avoided or taken apart, or scrambled over or obsessed over or allowed to lead to self-doubt. So, there it is–my confession and its proof. Time to wonder off and write a poem about what it feels like to hit a ceiling in the room of comprehension that used to be open to the stars (which would be putting to use what I know and not hurting my self esteem). Thank you for continuing to inspire and to aspire!
Oh, I think the magnificent thing about poetry is that it isn’t necessarily for understanding though I love your visualization of fences in a horse race. You capture so much in your description and I’m glad you’ll be writing in response, I always find that helps. Thank you for your engagement and kindness, it means a lot to me.
This is incredibly cool.
Thanks Mama Zen, I always love it when you pop by for a read.
Interesting process. I really love the vision painted in the first four stanza. Just peaceful. The processes that follow seems frightening and violent.
Thanks for the notes — especially the write on Parkour — I didn’t understand the sport; it was viewed as a nuisance. It’s not nice to be viewed as an obstacle, this obstacle is conscious and would not enjoy even the remote possibility of being run into.
Cool article and prompt at the bar. I will try to do something for it, but I can never keep up with the pace of dVerse community. By the time I finish, everyone’s moved on to the next prompt or link up. My OLN offerings are sometimes what was prompted for days before.
Yes, the first four are somewhat a state of normalcy as is the first phase, after that it gets disturbing (and rightfully so when we look at the consequences of painful stimulation). I could see how having a parkourist treat you as an obstacle would be unsettling! I do hope you join in even if it’s after the link up as I’d love to see your take on the prompt. Thank you for your ever thoughtful comments :)!
oh, anna, this is breath-taking language (albeit about a very misunderstood and debilitating disorder.) Years ago, I had someone who knew what they were talking about tell me that I needed to make major changes in my life due to my lingering ptsd symptoms. I said, “No thank you. Now let’s talk about how I can change myself to fit my lifestyle as it is.” Fast forward to now, just this week actually, when I asked another someone, who knows what she is talking about, if HSP could be rewired some how. She advised looking towards radical acceptance instead. I am inclined to agree with this philosophy today. Hope you are well. Great to see you hosting at the Pub 🙂
Thank you Sheila, I love the idea of ‘radical acceptance’, it could apply to so many areas of life. I saw a documentary about the use of virtual reality to treat war veterans with PTSD. After seeing the efficacy of art therapy first hand at the nonprofit arts center I ran I’m a fan of that too. It has been a real honor to guest host Poetics today.
Really liked “Ratcheting optimal levels of arousal “. Ratcheting is just the perfect word. And “pandemonium of agonies” is so good also.
You were the perfect person to write this prompt as your vocabulary is staggering. I haven’t linked up but am enjoying what this prompt… errr prompted. 🙂
Haha! Thanks, ratcheting felt right and I just realized I used arousal twice in the poem so I clearly wanted to talk about that :). I’ve learned several new words today so maybe that was part of my motivation. I had a multitude of ideas for the prompt (about 30) and Logophilia won out (not surprisingly).
I immediately felt excitement when presented with the painting..what energy and dislocation, jostling with harmony… I feel there is a struggle going on there, but the colours are brilliantly uplifting so give me a sense of a positive outcome.
Then the epigraph from ee cummings – solid clues setting up the right headers in my brain! All set then for what followed..and as ever, it is the variety of languages that really build the texture of the work here. I always enjoy your use of scientific terminology – reclaiming and disposing of it differently – while feeling ‘at home’ in this stanza:
Here in the interstices my song floods the synapses
sanctuary of full intellection and emotive grace
perpetual motion unaware of constraints
I never leave your site less than stimulated, knowing I do not have many of the answers to the questions you raise. I love the physicality of the language you use to embody abtracts (tonnage a prime example). Bravo – and a wonderful prompt for dVerse too!
Thank you Becky, I’ve been trying to remember your input on the experimental pieces as I move forward. They are wild creatures that often wriggle and bound off towards the horizon despite my best efforts to talk some sense into them :). I do think it’s important to remind ourselves how few answers we have, a way to stay honest and humble, to surrender to the power of art. I’m very happy you participated in the prompt and hope to see you in Logophilia round 2 :).
an unstable mind can be terrifying internally and externally for others.
this poem is very powerful. it offers the hope of forwards. something other than being the obstacle.
thank you.
Thank you, I do think it is fundamentally hopeful. I certainly am filled with optimism and a deep love of life. I always value your feedback.
Bowled over by the first stanza, some of the paintings and – as always – the Cummins. The further I got into your poem the harder the going became. I think the later stanzas will require another read or two. All-in-all, a memorable experience, for which I thank you.
Thank you David, I apologize that I lost you as the poem progressed. As I said to Becky these experimental pieces are wild animals that don’t always sit still for the picture so to speak. I always enjoy your visits and look forward to your offering.
Thank you so much for your brilliant prompt, and for this wildly brilliant poem. It is one that requires multiple readings, for there is so much here (many thanks for the explanations–and the cummings), and so much in the interstices. Which is my favorite line as well, because your song has certainly flooded my synapses!
You’re very welcome; it is gratifying to see the diversity and quality of responses. I enjoy writing work that reveals layers upon further reading and appreciate your compliment :)!
Always have to move from weekend chill to university mode when reading one of your poems! interesting stuff
Ha, it’s probably because I didn’t come hardwired with a ‘weekend chill’ mode. I’ve tried to learn but failed, error message keeps flashing.
There is so much going on here it’s tempting to try to address all of it, but I fear my comment would be longer than your fabulous poem. 🙂 As always, I read it before I read your commentary and then again after and it strikes me how the poem itself serves as overwhelming stimuli and my own reading mind had to work through the phases to grasp it then became conscious of itself doing it. I also love how your words seem clinical at first reading but then take a much more personal, human resonance as it to depict the currents under the clinical definitions. Brilliant!
No worries on that account as I appreciate all comments, long or short, about meaning or style or to simply say I stopped by. Yes, I think the poem does serve as overwhelming stimuli and I have to warn you I enjoy those types of Jedi mind tricks :). I deeply appreciate that you began to see the human resonance beneath the clinical as the reading settled into your mind. As a highly metaphoric thinker I enjoy the push and pull provided by using highly precise terms in a fundamentally imprecise context. Poetry is infinitely more suitable and expansive for that type of experimentation in my opinion. Ben, I get so much out of your responses thank you for sharing them with me.
wow, you really put me thru that obstacle course. I always appreciate how you bring these psychological terms and states into play in your work. Your attempt to embody them in poetry carries thru both modernist/postmodernist agendas, whichnis somewhat paradoxical. Modernist in the sense that you believe the mind has basic structures which can be reflected in art, a la Stein or Wookf or Joyce. Deconstructionist in the sense that wordplay and semantic lay bare the substructure, perhaps showing how linguistic it really is phenomenon.
On a lighter note, you talk about parkour! Great sport! I just watched a movie last night, based on a script by Luc Besson, which incorporated huge segments of parkour. I loved it, called B13. There’s also a great scene atbthe beginning of Casino Royale that has James Bond chasing a traceur. Great to see the juxtaposition between the two styles of chase, eg, Bond/traceur. I’d note that you forgot to mention parkour occurs in urban landscapes, and the obstacles are buildings and industrial architecture.
Well, it was just buried at the end of the lengthy notes :). I love paradoxes but you’ve probably already noticed. Thank you for the fascinating comment, you’ve given me a lot to think about which always stimulates more poetry. I’ll definitely look into the movie.
never heard of “parkour’ in and of itself, but the concept reminds me of exercises i’ve done in acting classes. it also has a holistic quality found in countless forms of alternative medicine.
your poem itself reminded me of the process to write the poem i wrote, and the process to photoshop the picture i took. all that is not too weird, since i sort of gave you the idea for this prompt in the first place.
in my comments, Chaz said that he knew this would be a perfect prompt for me, little does he know how perfect!! 🙂
I hadn’t until I wrote the poem either. The part of the prompt related to the words that don’t have an English equivalent will show up in Logophilia 2 up sometime in the next few weeks (where I thanked you for calling my attention to those articles). I’m looking forward to reading your offering as I’m now back from my morning commitments.
A masterful and well crafted concoction that is as beautiful as the imagery you used. As always I am in awe Anna!
What a gorgeous compliment, thank you!
You never cease to amaze, I am always so intrigued by the way your mind works. the final product is always amazing, and I am always left wondering how you start with a blank page and end up here.
The way you write is nothing sort of magical.
Love these lines especially:
reality wends an anfractuous path towards the essentially absurd
interior integrity crumbles under the tonnage
crushing architecture of exterior inhumanity
I am in love with the possibility of the blank page :). Thank you for your kindness, it means a lot.
Ummmm, WOW? Hehe! You’ve blown me away again, Anna! My head is spinning; I loved this 🙂 The technical end can be a bit scary, however, it’s all so interesting and we are richer for contiplating all this, but only because you are here to explain it.
I’m always interested in the interior, so I especially loved the idea of ”interior silhouette” and imagine I’ll be thinking of this for some time…probably tonight while I should be sleeping…haaa.
Thank you for this lovely piece.
-Eva
Ummmm, THANKS! I loved the interior silhouette too, there was something that felt right about the image and metaphor. I like it when ideas haunt me after being processed through art (sneaky, I think they end up in new poems) and that’s one I feel will return. It hasn’t let go of me yet. I always appreciate your visits, they brighten my day.
there’s always something to learn..
and a thought to think upon when I read u.. 🙂
Opening lines were super..
a treat to readers
Jyoti, how lovely to see you :)! I’ll be by soon to see what you’ve been writing.
Amazing piece Anna. Love the phases here, especially the paradoxical. So many awe-inspiring word choices and combinations here. The notes are wonderful in it’s depth and detail as well. An excellent addition to your amazing library of poetics. Thanks
Thank you, you are always so generous with your encouragement and kindness :).
Had to come back for another read. Completely captivated, both by the poem and the image.
David, I’m honored you returned and that you’ve gleaned something from my post!